tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-17340040380753251512024-03-19T20:26:37.090-07:00Gay JordanianI always hoped things were different and waited for them to progress. I then realised that I had to be part of the change I want to see in this world!gayjordanianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11487040207425644060noreply@blogger.comBlogger18125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1734004038075325151.post-2857843207514254122014-07-13T05:21:00.002-07:002014-07-15T12:59:14.182-07:00خواطر على خواطر<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">طلب مني مشاهدة برنامج خواطر، وخصيصاً الحلقة <span style="background-color: #fdfdfd; text-align: start;">الرابعة عشر</span>، بما جاء فيها من هجوم على المثلية. أول شئ بعتذر عن طول البوست هذا. لأنه برنامج لا يستحق وقتي أو وقتكم يا جماعة. بس بحب ألخص خمس وعشرون دقيقة من الفصاحة في ثلاث نقاط:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">1. مدينة بومبي الإيطالية: حول أخونا الفصيح تدمير مدينة، عدد سكانها لا يزيد عن 20 ألف في إلامبراطورية الرومانية، بسبب تفجر بركان طبيعي إلى درس ديني تغاضى عنه القرآن. فبحسب منطقه، كل كارثة طبيعية تحل بمدينة هي عقاب من الله على تصرف سكانها.جعلني اصفن في حال المدن العربية التي أكلتها الحروب والمآسي. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">في محاضرته الضجرة تناسى أن التعدد الجنسي الذي كان وارد في بومبي، كان موجود في مدن رومانية أخرى. مدن نجت من الهلاك، ولم تعاقب كما عوقبت بومبي. أطال في الحديث عن 'قوم لوط ٢' فأخذت المدينة حيز كبير من الحلقة. نراه يتخبط في المتاحف الأوربية ويستغفر ربه. هذا قبل أن يسخطه الله بإلقاء جواله على الأرض لعله يخرس. ولكن لا محالة. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">2. المثلية والأمراض النفسية: ولأول مرة في الحلقة ينطق فيها أحمد الشقيري كلمة حق. فللأسف تصيب الأمراض النفسية نسبة عالية من المثليين. أمراض كالقلق و الاكتئاب و الأرق. ولكن يراها أحمد دليل على عقاب الله لهم. فلا يكفي بأن تخلق الرغبة الجنسية في المثلييين، بل يعاقبهم الله على تلك المشاعر الطبيعية بهواجس نفسية تدفعهم إلى الإنتحار. فللحظة مريبة تشعر وكأن الشقيري تسعده تلك المعاصي والآلام الحقيقية لأناس ابرياء. كيف لا؟ و برنامجه قد يكون القشة التي تكسر ظهر مثلي مسكين يعاني من تخلف المجتمع حوله. يحذر أحمد المشاهد، وهو يمشي في شوارع سان فرانسيسكو، بأن بعض المدن العربية سيئول بها الحال إلى "هذا الوضع". تناسى في تلك اللحظة الطوابير على أبواب السفارات الأمريكية في تلك المدن العربية، تتهافت من أجل 'الكرت الأخضر'. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">3. الإنفتاح الجنسي والأمراض: يعرض لنا الشقيري أمام رسم بياني كيفية إرتباط إنتشار الجنس منذ الخمسينات في الولايات المتحدة بإزدياد معدل الأمراض المنقولة جنسياً. لا يحتاج هذا الرابط إلى شهادة في الأنثروبولوجي، ويستطيع التوصل إليه أخي الصغير الذي يبلغ من العمر خمس سنوات. في الحقيقة هذه الأمراض، و نسب المراهقين الذين مارسوا الجنس قبل الزواج في تراجع منذ مطلع العقد السابق، كما اظهرت دراسة حديثة في جريدة الاكونومست الأسبوعية. ذلك بفضل إنتشار الواق وتثقيف الاجيال الجديدة. فحل تلك المشاكل لا يكمن في الإنغلاق الفكري والتزمت الجنسي. و لكن "ما علينا". ينهي هذا المقطع بالتكلم عن مرض الأيدز و حصده لأربعة وثلاثون مليون ضحية و يبدي و كأن اللوم على المثليين. تناسى أيضاً أن معظم هؤلاء الضحايا أطفال ونساء في قارة إفريقيا، أصابهم الأيدز عن طريق الرضاعة وخلال الولادة. أترك هذه المعضلة في العدل الإلهي لحضرته، ليتناول محواها في حلقة تالية من برنامج لن أشاهده مجددا. </span></div>
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gayjordanianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11487040207425644060noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1734004038075325151.post-40664483673359664192013-01-22T14:44:00.000-08:002013-01-22T15:32:47.309-08:00Song Lyrics - Wasted Hours<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<b>"All those wasted hours we used to know. </b><br />
<b>Spent the summer staring out the window. </b><br />
<b>The wind, it takes you where it wants to go." </b><br />
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I refused to be that object. That pathetic plastic bag with no control over its destiny. A bag under the mercy of the winds around it. Powerless and weak. Never moving forwards, always moving in circles. Sucked into chaos ... What wasted hours indeed.<br />
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I decided I no longer wanted to be that, the moment I decided to come out to myself and to my close friends and relatives. I wanted to take control of my life. Even if it meant powering against the backwards and self-righteous winds of my society; I now at least have control over my future. I get to live life the way nature intended.<br />
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I never regret that decision. And more than anything, I am thankful for all the support I had along the way. Support from people I never expected to accept me as I am. I truly wish strength to everyone living their lives in fear. Wasting hours trying to be something they're not. Wasting hours trying to adapt with the wind, only to find that the wind is what's keeping them lost in the first place. Life is what you make of it.<br />
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">أذكر مرة ذهبنا على إحدى الجولات على العربات النارية في الصحراء. وصلنا أنا واخوتي إلى خيمة شعر. <span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">منطقة </span><span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">بعيدة</span><span style="background-color: white;"> كل البعد عن أزمة عمان وناسها. جلسنا لنشرب فنجان من القهوة، وإذ بأبي يفتح موضوع سياسي مع قائد الجولة. شاب مصري بسيط.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">كانت <span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">هناك</span><span style="background-color: white;"> في تلك الأوقات قمة عربية مقامة في شرم الشيخ</span><span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">؛</span><span style="background-color: white;"> موضوع الحلقة </span><span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">كما يقال</span><span style="background-color: white;">. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">"بتحب حسني مبارك؟" سأله أبي. "يالله عاد، ما حد سامع، احكي إلي بقلبك!"</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">أتذكر نظرة الخوف في عين هذا الرجل، وكأنه رأى شبح. <span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">إختار كلماته بكل تأني. وكأن اجابته مراقبة في هذا الخلاء. خوفه كان حقيقياً ولن أنسى ذلك الموقف.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;"><span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">خاصة وها نحن الآن. في وقت تبدو فيه هذه الذكرة من وحي الخيال. </span>بعد أقل من عشرة اعوام، نرى هذا الدكتاتور<span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">الذي كان بوسعه إرعاب رجل صادق ونزيه</span><span style="background-color: white;"> خلف القضبان، يعاقب بالسجن المؤبد. ومصر</span><span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">، أم الدنيا، </span><span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">تحتفل بحلتها الديمقراطية الجديدة!</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: 'Trebuchet MS', sans-serif;">فلماذا التشائم عند التكلم عن حقوق المثليين؟ لماذا لا نرى اليوم الذي سينظر فيه إلى هذه الصورة <span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">الأخرى</span><span style="background-color: white;"> بندم؟ مثليين في مصر خلف القضبان بسبب فعل لا يؤذي أحد، بسبب مشاعر لا يمكن لأحد التحكم بها أو تغييرها. هذه القضبان نفسها التي بعد 10 سنين حشت الحقير حسني مبارك وعاقبته على جرائمه.</span></span></div>
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Hope that's been convincing. There is <b>absolutely no reason </b>why you should be hating on us. In fact, after reading this, you should be going around Amman looking for a gay best friend of your own!</div>gayjordanianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11487040207425644060noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1734004038075325151.post-57552867703343670542012-05-17T11:03:00.003-07:002012-05-17T11:03:12.367-07:00I Found The Cure!... And I couldn't be happier.<br />
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I can finally work, study and live without this enormous heavy <b>weight </b>on my shoulders.<br />
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I have lived my entire life fighting it and denying myself the right to be happy. But it can all stop now. Because I found <i>the</i> <i>cure</i> to my illness.<br />
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I came across a revelation. I have been fighting the wrong thing here the past two decades. My disease wasn't being gay. Show a baby a picture of two guys kissing and he wouldn't bat an eyelid. Because love is natural. We are social animals that are stimulated by positive social contact in all its forms.<br />
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Show that baby the picture 10 years later and he's suddenly disgusted by it. He's been inflicted with the true <b>disease </b>here. Homophobia is the problem. Homophobia that is shoved down our throats from the day we acquire the capacity to hate.<br />
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We get fed this crap till we get to our teens, when our <b>natural </b>homosexual feelings rise to the surface, and we wrongly label those as our illness.<br />
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I finally got rid of my homophobia. I am now cured, able to continue my life as a normal human being. One that is able to live, love and learn. Can you get rid of yours?<br />
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<b><span style="font-size: x-small;">May 17th, International Day Against Homophobia.</span></b>gayjordanianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11487040207425644060noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1734004038075325151.post-83333021007032577752012-05-09T08:54:00.001-07:002012-05-09T08:54:20.520-07:00A quick question...<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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They smile and wish they had the same. "We lost our family values" they sadly confess. They reminisce about the older generation and how it <i>all used to be</i>. We proudly say how we still cherish those values and we nuzzle that warm feeling of self-righteousness.</div>
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Parents in our culture struggle with the concept of <b><u>"unconditional love"</u></b>. I know it's a tough generalisation, but it's closer to the truth than anything. We only love our kids if they turn out the way we imagined them to, with a perfect family of their own so we can die happily and rest in peace, knowing they're having expectations of their own to force onto their kids. A non-ending hypocritical cycle of 'pretend love'. Bullshit. </div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">"مريض"، "مقرف"، "حقير"، "واطي"، "شاذ". أنا شخصياً سمعت حدة ردود الفعل للمثلية في مجتمعاتنا. فجزء بشوفها خطية عقابها الموت، والجزء الآخر بشوفها مرض وعال على المجتمع. بس مشكلتي مش مع المجموعة الأولى، فإلي بشوفها خطية وبعمل حاله عريف نيابتاً عن الله لازم يراجع نفسه و ينظر إلى الخشبة إلي في عينه أول (على مقولة سيدنا عيسى عليه السلام). مشكلتي مع المجموعة إلي بتشوف المثلية كمرض، وبناءً على ذلك، تدعم الهومو فوبيا إلي في مجتمعاتنا. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">الأمراض كثيرة، وكلنا منعرف عنها. من السرطان لأمراض القلب ومروراً في الإكتئاب والأمراض النفسية الأخرى. بس شو بتكون ردة فعلك إنت، لو شفت واحد ببهدل في مريض سرطان عشان حالته؟ إذا رأيك إنه المثلية مرض، فمش من المنطق انك تساند المريض وتوقف معه؟ طيبة الإنسان بتطلب منا إنه نساند بعض، مش نطفس أخونا الإنسان إذا حاول التعبير عن نفسه. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">غير عن كل هالحكي، الأمراض وعلاجاتها تعرف من خلال دراسات و بحوثات كبيرة. لما شركة أدوية تنتج علاج جديد، بكون وراء هذا العلاج دراسة تثبت فعاليته. ولكن بيجيلك واحد على تويتر بحكي "روح عالج نفسك من مرضك يا لوطي" الجمله طبعاً سهل تنحكى، ولكن في الحقيقة، جمعية الدكاترة النفسية في أمريكا (دولة تقود التطور في علم الطب) ازالة تصنيف المثلية من الأمراض النفسية، و اضافت أنه محاولة تغيير الميول الجنسي مضرة لصحة العقل وتؤدي إلى أمراض نفسية كالإكتئاب والحصر. </span><span style="background-color: #fdfdfd; text-align: -webkit-auto;"><span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;"><b>لا يوجد علاج للمثلية</b>. لش؟ <b>لأنها مش مرض</b>. مش مقتنع، أدخل كلية طب وإبدأ دراسة عشان تقنعني.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">ا<a href="http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2012/04/11/robert-spitzer-ex-gay-psychiatrist-retraction_n_1417679.html" target="_blank">لأسبوع الماضي طبيب نفسي في أمريكا، روبرت سبيتزر، إعتذر نيابةً عن كل إلي تأثروا من دراسة نشرها في 2001. </a>الدراسة كانت الوحيده إلي ذكرت إنه الميول الجنسي يمكن تغييره إذا أصر الواحد وإلتزم في جهوده. إعترف ناشر هذه الدراسة بإنه النتائج كانت غير دقيقة وأنه محاولة كبت هذه المشاعر غير مجدية ومضرة. </span></div>
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الله خالق السموات والأرض أكبر من حكي إبن الجيران. الله أكبر من تفاهة الإمام أو الخوري في مسجد أو كنيسة الحارة. </div>
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المثليين جميعاً نعلم بأن هذه المشاعر <b> لم نختارها</b>. هي مشاعر كانت تراود البعض منا منذ الطفولة.</div>
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الله لا يخطئ. وعندما أنظر إلى هذه الصورة لمجرة درب التبانة, <span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">أرى</span> <span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">وضوح تلك الجملة</span>. أنا جزء من هذا الكون العظيم الذي خلقه الله. هذا الكون الذي يقزم كره إبن الجيران للمثليين، يقزم التكبر الذي يوارد بعض الناس عندما يحقدون على من هم مثلي.</div>
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أنا ذرة في هذا الكون الواسع، ومحبتي وشغفي للحياة يجعلاني افضل من من يحاول تدميري، أفضل من من يحاول أن يكرهني <span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">في</span> <span style="background-color: #fdfdfd;">نفسي </span>. </div>gayjordanianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11487040207425644060noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1734004038075325151.post-68566973402252611992012-04-17T03:16:00.002-07:002012-04-17T06:47:08.999-07:00Born this way!Sorry for not blogging in a while. I've been immersed in my thoughts lately. So much things I want to say but can't get my head round them to make them comprehensible!<br />
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"I'm beautiful in my way, Cause God makes no mistakes, I'm on the right track baby, I was born this way"<br />
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<b>على تويتر اتحدث دائمأ عن حقوق المثليين. ولكن أحياناً أجد نفسي غارقاً في التفكير في معنى هذه الحقوق. جواب منطقي تتفق عليه المنظمات الدولية هو حق الإنسان لحياة كريمة. ولكن ماذا تعني هذه العبارة التي كثيراً ما تتداولها الصحف و المحطات الاخباريه؟ أجد أن مع كثر إستعمالها، للأسف، قد فقدت معناها. ولكن نعم لي حق لحياة كريمة. </b></div>
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<b>منذ أول دقيقة استيقظ فيها، وأنا خائف على مستقبلي. لا أدري ماذا يحمله لي. هل سينتهي بي المطاف في زواج مدبر، أدمر فيه إمرأة، لها أيضاً حقها في حياة كريمة وزوج يحبها ويجدها مثيرة؟ أرفض هذه الفكرة جملة وتفصيلاً. ولكن الأعذار التي يمكن استخدمها للتهرب من الزواج تتقلص مع مرور الوقت. عاجلاً أم آجلاً، سأجد نفسي في موقف علي شرحه لأهلي وعائلتي.</b></div>
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<b>أكثر ما أكره هو أن هذه الاسئله والسيناريوهات طغت حتى على صلواتي. أكره أن تخلف هذا المجتمع قد أثر على علاقتي مع خالق هذا الكون. حتى حقي في إيماني قد سلب مني.</b></div>
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<b>كابوس أعيشه كل يوم. إلى ساعات الليل المتأخرة، أتقلب في فراشي بحثاً عن صورة لمستقبل ومجتمع يتقبل وجودي. أتأمل بأن مدونة الكترونيه بعنوان "مثلي أردني" سوف تقلب مجتمعي رأساً على عقب. أحاول طلي كابوسي الأسود بريشة حلم بيضاء، لعل الظلام يتفشى.</b></div>
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<b>يتهم الناس بأن من مثلي من المثليين فاسدون في هذا المجتمع. وعندها ابتسم، فأتذكر عناوين عمون وسرايا. الفاسدون في البلاد نهبوا وطن، ولكن المجتمع لا يزال يوجه أصابع الإتهام إلى مواطنون صالحون، همومهم مثل أي شخص آخر. أكبر ذنب ارتكبناه هو شعور لا نستطيع السيطرة عليه. جزء منا لا نستطيع تغييره. </b></div>
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<b>يا ترى هل يطارد هذا الأرق والشعور بالذنب 'حرامية البلد' كما يطاردني أنا؟ يا ترى هل سيستيقظ أخي الأردني ويتفهم بأني "مثلي مثلك" <span style="background-color: #fdfdfd; font-family: inherit; text-align: -webkit-auto;">لكن</span> الفرق الوحيد بأني مثلي؟</b></div>
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<b>تركنا حق الحياة لسارقي هذا الوطن، ولا حياة لمن ينادي. </b></div>
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In any given moment, we're always gathering details about the present moment, and we continuously look for even more details about those details. We try to construct a mental image of what's around us and we compare it to things that happened in the past, and then project it onto possible scenarios in the future. The mind is truly an amazing thing.</div>
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But this worries me too. Because the way I see it, if I do come out to a friend, that little extra detail about who I am will play a major role in toppling his mental image of me. He might be supportive, but he might not be. Who am I to deconstruct years and years of the social homophobia my friends and family have been exposed to? I know I am struggling to get over it myself.</div>gayjordanianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11487040207425644060noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1734004038075325151.post-55406221911102860162012-03-04T11:38:00.001-08:002012-03-12T17:48:32.093-07:00On why I love the InternetNot only does the internet allow me to post my stories (transcending social taboos and under the cover of anonymity), it also allows for human imagination and creativity to go wild. Take a look at this.<br />
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So Angelina Jolie's dress in the Oscars revealed pretty much the whole of her right leg; and boy she was proud of it. She kept poking that leg out of the dress EVERY SINGLE TIME she had her picture taken. <a href="http://news.sky.com/home/showbiz-news/article/16178689" target="_blank">It became a running joke</a> during the ceremony (being copied by Jim Rash when accepting his award).<br />
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'The Internet' showed no mercy and Angelina's 'leg bomb' went viral. Here's a <a href="http://www.oddee.com/item_98113.aspx" target="_blank">a selection</a> of the coolest 15 pictures that came out of this. This is a clear example on how SOPA would have ruined the internet. If put through, THIS would never have happened. Thank God that bill wasn't passed.<br />
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PS. I know this has nothing to do with homosexuality, but I guess gay people can have a sense of humour too. And if <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/AngiesRightLeg" target="_blank">a leg gets its own twitter account</a> in our day and age, a <a href="https://twitter.com/#!/GayJordanian" target="_blank">gay Jordanian</a> man deserves one too.gayjordanianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11487040207425644060noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1734004038075325151.post-48103055296744783452012-02-29T07:01:00.003-08:002012-02-29T07:12:46.592-08:00Happy Leap Day<a href="http://sheen123animefreak.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/feb29.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em; text-align: justify;"><img border="0" height="200" src="http://sheen123animefreak.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/feb29.jpg" width="197" /></a><br />
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It's February the 29th! And with it, I'm taking a <b><i>leap</i></b> of faith that things will change. A leap of faith that 20 years down the line I will be happy, that I will still want to see more of my life.</div>
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Yesterday was a downer for me. I signed up for a Jordanian forum called mahjoob.com. In it people get to discuss everything standard Jordanians go through. From political views on the Arab spring, to simply ranting about a mishap on public transport.</div>
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I tried to share my story and discuss the elephant in the room; homosexuality in our region. I thought it started well, but less than a day in, I was banned. Banned for being myself and banned for asking for social acceptance.</div>
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I was hopeless; realising that I am fighting a colossal mountain, it also left me feeling scared and disgruntled. It was a taster of my worst nightmare; shunned from my own society for being me.</div>
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I <b>need </b>the leap of faith, that things will change. It's all what I got.</div>gayjordanianhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11487040207425644060noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1734004038075325151.post-19999997108974927882012-02-27T18:17:00.004-08:002012-02-29T07:02:39.463-08:00HappYness<div style="text-align: justify;">
The pursuit of happyness. That movie really made me think. For those of you who haven't seen it, it's basically a true story of this guy longing to feel happy. Without ruining too much of it, him and his kid end up on the streets of San Francisco. Rushing from one homeless shelter to another; one night, they resort to sleeping in a public toilet at a subway station. Realising that he has hit rock bottom, we see him trying to hold back the tears with the son sleeping in his lap. <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=htRXyLN1S4w" target="_blank">A very emotional scene</a>.</div>
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How does that relate to my situation, you ask? I'm not saying that I have it as bad as a homeless man. Maybe in some way the movie made me realise how bad things could be. At least I have a bed I go home to every night; food pretty much guaranteed on the table; friends I could trust, and a family whom, despite not knowing my secret, I will always love. Things could be<b><i> much worse </i></b>I remind myself. A quick glance at Al-Jazeera's hourly news update and events in Homs make that very clear. Things could be<i><b> much worse</b>.</i></div>
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But the movie gave me insight into the struggle a class of society goes through daily. A struggle I completely dismissed every time I walked by a homeless dude. We drive past them, and whether at a traffic light or outside a mosque, we silently judge them. We judge them for their <i>choices (?) </i>that brought them to where they are now. As if they purposely decided to end up in that situation.; dirty, sad and exhausted. Was that the future they had in mind for themselves as kids?</div>
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I never understood why we do that. Why do we judge them? What part of human nature allows for such <i>inhumane </i>thoughts to come to our heads? Is it the sense of superiority it gives us? Their failure somehow highlighting what we've accomplished in our lives, and we thus feel better? We forget that we are all humans pursuing happiness. Wanting to feel better.</div>
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We get so involved in pursuing our own happiness that sometimes we forget <b>we</b> have the keys to the happiness of <b>others</b>. Whether that key is securing a man's lunch for the day or simply giving another the much needed social acceptance, we forget. And we ride each others' fears and feed off the anxieties. We try and pull each other down, hoping that this would maybe get us a little bit closer to the top. </div>
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I've been meaning to start this blog for a while now. The time to get my act together and write this first post has come.</div>
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The name is Samir. I've always found names interesting. Labels used to acknowledge the fact that we are separate human beings. Human beings with different life stories, different goals and different ambitions. A name is such an integral part of who you are, yet it is rarely chosen. You get assigned a name by your parents, you grow up and and you come to accept it and introduce yourself by it; The name is Samir, whether I like it or not.</div>
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Here I am, coming to accept yet another thing about myself that I didn't choose. From the title of the blog you probably already guessed what I'm referring to.</div>
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<strong>I am <em>gay. </em></strong>There, I said it.</div>
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Throughout my teenage years, that thought would haunt me. My heart would sink every time it made its way to the surface. I would ignore it. <em>No way! </em>I'd think. <em>It can't happen to me.</em> Of course, I knew <em>other </em>people could be gay. <em>But me? That's just silly.</em></div>
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I would shove that thought back into deep, dark waters. In a place from which there was no return. However, the beast kept coming back. And as if nourished by the neglect, it came back stronger every time. It would start to consume more and more of my concentration.</div>
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"Are you okay?", my mother would ask. Their maternal instinct tells them that something is up.</div>
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"Yeah, I'm <strong>fine</strong>". <em>That's a thing I could <strong>never</strong> tell her.</em></div>
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<strong>I'm gay </strong>... Or am I? ... I can't be! ... <strong>But I'm attracted to men.</strong> <em>Ya rabbi</em>, I must be ... <strong>My life is over </strong>... what if I'm not though. Think hard of a girl you're attracted to Samir, there must be one ....<em>think </em>...<em> THINK </em>... Oh Tamara, that girl from lectures ... She's pretty, <strong><em>I guess</em>. </strong>She has a nice slim body, <strong><em>That's nice no?</em></strong> ... Those curves would be nice to touch, <em><strong>I guess. </strong>Come on... Get hard. you can do it! </em>Prove to yourself you're straight... prove to yourself that you're <em>normal</em></div>
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It took time to finally admit that it was a losing battle. I've been denying myself the right to be who I am. I was pretending to be someone I'm not.</div>
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