Showing posts with label Faith. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Faith. Show all posts

Thursday, 19 April 2012

Allah loves me, yes I know!

Yes he does. And I love him. You CAN be religious and gay. People will always try and put us down, but that doesn't matter.


الله خالق السموات والأرض أكبر من حكي إبن الجيران. الله أكبر من تفاهة الإمام أو الخوري في مسجد أو كنيسة الحارة. 

المثليين جميعاً نعلم بأن هذه المشاعر  لم نختارها. هي مشاعر كانت تراود البعض منا منذ الطفولة.

الله لا يخطئ. وعندما أنظر إلى هذه الصورة لمجرة درب التبانة, أرى وضوح تلك الجملة. أنا جزء من هذا الكون العظيم الذي خلقه الله. هذا الكون الذي يقزم كره إبن الجيران للمثليين، يقزم التكبر الذي يوارد بعض الناس عندما يحقدون على من هم مثلي.



أنا ذرة في هذا الكون الواسع، ومحبتي وشغفي للحياة يجعلاني افضل من من يحاول تدميري، أفضل من من يحاول أن يكرهني في نفسي 

Wednesday, 29 February 2012

Happy Leap Day


It's February the 29th! And with it, I'm taking a leap of faith that things will change. A leap of faith that 20 years down the line I will be happy, that I will still want to see more of my life.

Yesterday was a downer for me. I signed up for a Jordanian forum called mahjoob.com. In it people get to discuss everything standard Jordanians go through. From political views on the Arab spring, to simply ranting about a mishap on public transport.

I tried to share my story and discuss the elephant in the room; homosexuality in our region. I thought it started well, but less than a day in, I was banned. Banned for being myself and banned for asking for social acceptance.

I was hopeless; realising that I am fighting a colossal mountain, it also left me feeling scared and disgruntled. It was a taster of my worst nightmare; shunned from my own society for being me.

I need the leap of faith, that things will change. It's all what I got.